denial, anger, bargaining,
depression....and finally acceptance.
i am certain that i am stuck in four of the five stages....
i didn't think i was such a life pansy....i seem to suck at overcoming some stuff.
or maybe i am just addicted to being sad about stuff;
loss, abandonment, icky ouchies that happen
when you LIVE life and people you LOVE dont.
(bitter edge of anger here)
i am actually questioning stage 5. really?
anyhow....today i had a little tearful smile with a friend. my friend lost a good friend about a week ago. this good friend was a good guy living with some life baggage -- as all human beings tend to do.
this good guy had some struggles, he died after consuming one particular struggle. anyhow, left behind people who loved him, who appreciated him, who saw all the good stuff in this guy.
but the SMILE in the story is that this good guy did something really nice for someone about a month ago.
it goes like this:
a young couple came into the station
where this good guy worked.
they had just had a baby
and were headed home from the hospital.
home was about an hour away.
they had to be in a
kind of far
the young father needed to fill up with gas.
his credit card didn't work.
something about his own life struggles.
he was in a sad sorrow,
his young baby
and baby's mother in the car waiting.
so this good guy
spent his own money
to fill up this young couples car.
he also gifted them some drinks
and munchies for the road trip home.
the young man
with the generosity
of our good guy
said "i will be back to pay you".
the good guy said
enjoy your new baby,
it's my treat"
here we are
-- a month later,
a week since
good guys sad passing
from this world
the young man comes back
into the station,
an hour from home
asking when good guy will be at work
"will you give him this envelope?"
my good friend of the good guy
with tears in his eyes
told the young man
about his friends passing.
the young man broke
a hug between two strangers
both touched by the loss
left an emptyness
in their embrace.
inside was a bill - to pay back the debt
and a baby birth announcement
the impact of good guys kindness
will live on in the young mans son
the baby boy
middle name --
for in this strangers kindness
to these two young parents
trying to get home
left a legecy
baby boy "good guy" last name
i suppose the moral of this for me
when you remember
the print of a person
in your life ---
a lot of good
among the gRief.