wHat's in yoUr rEaRview?

good gRief?

Grieving is generally done in 5 stages:

  denial, anger, bargaining,

depression....and finally acceptance.

i am certain that i am stuck in four of the five stages....

i didn't think i was such a life pansy....i seem to suck at overcoming some stuff. 
or maybe i am just addicted to being sad about stuff;

loss, abandonment, icky ouchies that happen

when you LIVE life and people you LOVE dont. 

(bitter edge of anger here)

i am actually questioning stage 5.  really?

anyhow....today i had a little tearful smile with a friend.  my friend lost a good friend about a week ago.  this good friend was a good guy living with some life baggage -- as all human beings tend to do. 

this good guy had some struggles, he died after consuming one particular struggle.  anyhow, left behind people who loved him, who appreciated him, who saw all the good stuff in this guy.

but the SMILE in the story is that this good guy did something really nice for someone about a month ago. 


it goes like this:

a young couple came into the station

 where this good guy worked. 

they had just had a baby

and were headed home from the hospital. 

home was about an hour away. 

they had to be in a

special hospital

kind of far

from "home".

  the young father needed to fill up with gas. 

 his credit card didn't work. 

something about his own life struggles. 

he was in a sad sorrow,

his young baby

and baby's mother in the car waiting. 

so this good guy

spent his own money

 to fill up this young couples car.

  he also gifted them some drinks

 and munchies for the road trip home.

the young man

overwhelmed

with the generosity

of our good guy

said "i will be back to pay you".

  the good guy said

"no worries,

enjoy your new baby,

it's my treat"

here we are

-- a month later,

 a week since 

good guys sad passing

from this world

the young man comes back

into the station,

an hour from home

asking when good guy will be at work

"will you give him this envelope?"

my good friend of the good guy

with tears in his eyes

told the young man

about his friends passing.

the young man broke

tears shed,

a hug between two strangers

both touched by the loss

which

left an emptyness

in their embrace.

but....

the envelope

inside was a bill - to pay back the debt

and a baby birth announcement

the impact of good guys kindness

will live on in the young mans son

the baby boy

middle name --

"good guy"

for in this strangers kindness

to these two young parents

trying to get home

left a legecy

baby boy "good guy" last name

i suppose the moral of this for me

is that

when you remember

the print of a person

in your life ---

at times

there 

can be

found 

a lot of good

among the gRief.

today

dear day,

i slept more than usual.  did a lot of thinking.  watered my flowers.  a neighbor stopped to chat.  she listened.  it was refreshing.  people don't listen very often.  it's good.  they have a lot going on, a lot on their mind.  and i like to listen, so that's that.  although, it was very nice of her to hear me.  picked the kids up from school. watered and fed the dogs and cat.  watered and fed the kids.  fhe (short for family home evening) ...well, maybe.  it is getting a little late, and short of day light.  there are still a lot of things to be done.  i love spring.  spring cleaning ...not so much.  but it has to be done.  tomorrow i spring clean the easy way...kicked back in the chair at the dentist!  well.  thats about today.  it.

--me

woRdleSs wEdneSdAy

B

I got a B!

Yep...exclamation point B.

...did i mention FINALS are over....?

I have been checking my grades everyday for a week now. This class that I barely got through...nearly failed the final...submitted my paper +1 minute later than the on-line-deadline, went into with an A....and ended with a B...exclamation point!


What is a B to me today? ....it's a reminder:

B happy.
B patient.
B thankful.
B cheerful.

B more.
B aware.
B sensitive.
B thoughtful.

B giving.

B content.

B willing.
B thrifty.
B productive.

B friend.

And my FAVORITE B....mr B!

..it has been too long since I wrote the legends of Mr. B.

Here is a link to

 100ish reasons i LOVE mr. B!

Check it out!
I did and it was a good reminder.

today....i am okay with a B!

(and still...in love...with Mr. B!)

way-back When-esday!

not only is this WAY BACK (1979ish)

but...a polaroid ...seriously :)

This picture is

 my mother with my baby sister

driving the tractor,

me sitting on my GRANDfather's lap,

bailing hay on our childhood farm!

My older sister is just behind me,

and my two brothers.

Happy Memories! 

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