Monday, January 19, 2009

another Wendyburd tag!!! THANKS ♥

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
no, but if I had a twin, which I pretended that I did and have scarred my baby sister for life pretending that my twin Stephanie was an alien...and she totally believed me. sorry sweetie. you can blog nasty things about me for this if it would be therapeutic to tell someone about it. love you. I still love that name...and actually decided if I have another girl I would name her Steavie....cute???

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED AND WHY?
When I got the results of my Mental Health Evaluation and found out that I have a Mental Illness....which made all the world crumble around me, and I sobbed for days, without explanation, which totally freaked my kids out, and made everything worse. and now I get that I just needed a good breakdown because my grandmother had passed away and I wasnt dealing with the pain of loss from death, as if I had never experienced it, and then I had a physical, distraught as I was looking and filled out paperwork while in this condition which made me feel even crazier than normal....and i learned that having a combination of ocd and manic moodyness, with a downer of depression/anxiety is not supposidly NORMAL....so i am anti-normal, and I cry alot when I hurt....which I actually think is normal

now, anyone who just read that last paragraph....please tell me: YES, you feel this way sometimes, or NO, you are DEFINATLY CRAZY girl....let me know what you think...and be honest...k



YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
lOvE my own Handwriting....actually I write journals as much as I type blogger stuff/FB/Emails/personal history, etc....

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
a black forest ham, anyday...unless you have a real bone in ham....i love that too, with swiss cheese....wait, I am going to have a slice, be right back...







DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
yes, lucky to have four....almost couldn't have any....so very thankful, and just thankful.

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
mmmmmmmm, yes, I think so.

DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
way to much....not good for parenting, that's for sure!!!

DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
I actually don't know...no, I think I had them out.... hmmm, silly.


WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I agree with WEndyBurD on this one...
quote:
"No bloody way. I don't "love" heights. And knowing my luck, I would be the bad statistic and the bungee would break." unquote

I feel sick just thinking about it,,,,and the bounce part, looks like a bad case of whiplash.

quote again:
"AAAAGGGHHH!"
unquote



WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Froot Loops, Puffed Rice, Cheerios with cream, or hot cereal...



DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No, i have slip ons'. Kids dont either...they make theirs into slip ons'!!!



DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Yes, I have been through quite a bit in my life...but my strength does not come from myself, it is within me because I have tried to endure patiently all that I have been given as trials.

a quote that i live by and yet I do fall apart a great deal of the time, then pick myself up and move forward..."All the strength you need is within you now, it was put there by your creator, who knew well what you would face in this life and made you equal too it."



WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Rocky Road...like my grandma - i thankfully was given her favorite spoon. it is all i would ask for if given the option to have something of hers. i now just finished off a half gallon with it. and i feel close to her...smiling, with her spoon and my ice cream. it is how she would want it.


WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE ?
Smiles,i agree with wendy....really it is the only think I notice...trying to picture people...clothes/hair/shoes/jewelry/smells......NOPE, just thinking of the smiles, and then the eyes...peoples eyes tell a lot. about if they are interested in you, if they are really letting you in.

funny, i notice smiles, but I cant really think of their teeth...nope, just the smile.

RED OR PINK?
red, love a deep RED
thinking of valentines, hmmm, smiling...


WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF
I don't like that when I talk to people I loose my train of thought, and I pause...I think I must come across uninterested, or maybe a little crazee--takes you back to question number two...are you still reading me...hmmmmm



WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST ?
My grandma



WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
om goodness...this is embarassing. so I am not sure but I am going to say, the same clothes I have worn since last Thursday. I wash them overnight after a couple of days wearing them. THe shirt and Jacket have alternated, but the pants...nope..okay...here goes.

black sweats...hence the back surgery...have to wear something loose. (and I have gone to school twice in these, yes, kind of embarassing...the first day I hadn't been able to shower, because I couldn't get the incision wet....okay tmi right

you don't have to keep reading if your all flushed and embarassed, or if you now agree that I have problems....

he he...a green shirt, blue jacket, and my knee high socks, also green but more flouresant with the little tassel balls...i love them



WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE ?
peanut m n m's...

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
silence....ahhhhh, the kids have moved in with my sister in law until Tuesday morning...hmmmm that is a story in itself...however, the silence is awe....some...

IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Green or Yellow, maybe Orange. love those colors. love them together....hint hint...our bathroom needs remodeling and I bought towels in these colors for my husband...
FAVORITE SMELLS?
lavender...actually I love Christmas tree,
evergreen
and I love pumpkin candles, with spice.
and LEMON....yum
the candle I have right now is carrot cake,....mmmmmmm


WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
my son...he is snowboarding and called to check in, having dinner with friends.

thankful that he calls and is respectful with me saying NO to a sleepover...all nighter ...
AFTER being gone the entire day snowboarding...have to put a stop to the fun at some point....and at least he will still respect the laying down the law...I know we are lucky. he is 14 years old...things could get worse...thankful again that he will listen. and respect....might not always be this way..phew.


FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
FOOTBALL...but I also love baseball, and golf. weird, right.

HAIR COLOR?
Wendyburd: "At the moment? DARK red." ...love her red hair.
and me...just regular brown



EYE COLOR?
Green

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yes

FAVORITE FOOD?
spinach artichoke dip, with crackers/bread/chips...whatever
A Dr. Pepper and MnM's works fine too...



SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings.
actually anything my husband wants to watch because he will rub my feet.
so generally we watch the man shows.


LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
hmmmmm, I think it was Batman, the new one, Dark Night...I slept through it, twice...



WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
GREEN

i tell you...grrrrrrrr
[boy, do i need a shower...i smell like a resthome....sorry. major overshare!!!!



SUMMER OR WINTER?
Fall. ♥



HUGS OR KISSES?
Wendyburd:
"Hugs are so under rated, they are so comforting!"
...ditto


FAVORITE DESSERT?
Creme Bruilee




WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
among the hidden, Margaret Peterson Haddox


WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Wilber...the pig from Charlottes Web.

WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT?
Dark Night....a few minutes before I fell asleep. actually went to a movie...Zak and Miri....




FAVORITE SOUND?
Birds chirping. singing wake up...it is morning. i have bushes planted outside all the bedroom windows, hoping for birdis to sing good morning. My neighbor and husband tricked me once and put an electronic bird sound outside my window. I really thought it was birds, and it was quite annoying. they are so silly.



ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Both

WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Japan .... my husband is [was] the United States representative for Toyota last year...so we went with people from 50 plus countries to Japan for the International Awards Ceremony....they were amazing, treated us very well. Fun to meet people from all over the world...

DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Wendyburd: "I think art, if I do say so myself".....again DITTO

WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Highland, UTAH....actually American Fork Hospital...fork as in fark...


I tag: any one...this is a long one..but fun. Do what you want and let me know if you do it!!!!♥

5 comments:

Cynthia said...

Hey- that was fun to learn more about you. I know you've been struggling in a lot of ways but it sounds like better things are just around the corner. Keep moving forward- you ARE making progress.

Jillene said...

I miss my grandma most too. Oh and i love Rocky Road and Peanut M & M's!!

rachel said...

This was a great tag-so insightful! I miss both my grandmas and I feel them all the time (particularly when I had my kids :)

Don and Susan Brady said...

Today, I love life. We have more incommon than CHOCOLATE. I love reading your blog and feel very close to you. Love the Tag I don't usually do tags but you have challenged and I just might. Hugs to you

pseu⋅don⋅y⋅mous said...

Okay, Stephanie...you would think that it would have been therapeutic to share just one of the awful-scarred-for-life-self-esteem-damaging stories from my childhood, however when I have shared the whole "I am not your sister" story, I basically loose respect of that person. As soon as I am done telling it, you can see it on their face like omigosh I cannot believe she fell for that, what an idiot!
Oh dibs on Steavie...

on marriage

'Will you, um, marry me?' I haven't seen you in weeks! You don't look happy or excited about the prospect of our marriage! You're asking me to give up my - my freedom, my joie de vivre for an institution that fails as often as it succeeds? And why should I marry you anyway? I mean, why do you wanna marry me? Besides some bourgeois desire to fulfill an ideal that society embeds in us from an early age to promote a consumer capitalist agenda?